everything just don't make sense
and everything seems to be so wrong.

the people that you trust,
the things you do,
the decisions you make.
it all seems to be wrong.

I know things aren't always perfect,
but it doesn't even have any "good" in it.
Then what's the point?
What's the point of trusting it?
What's the point of giving chances?
What's the point of hoping that it would change?

It just won't.
Won't change.
I know it won't.
It's obvious and it's making me crazy.

I don't know what to say.
Nothing at all.
Just a whole lot of disappointment.

It's been long since I last expressed myself in this way.
I guess it must have affected me quite a lot and that's why I feel like blogging.
You must have thought that I don't care about it.
But it does hurt me deeply.
And that's why it's all hard for me to accept.
Even if there's going to be any changes,
I don't know if I'll be able to accept it anymore.

please don't ask me what this is about or who I'm talking about.
It's not about any specific event or person.
Just some of my thoughts.
Thoughts that had been kept within me for a very long time.

But I guess all these things that I'm blogging won't be enough for you to understand.
It's not clear, and there seems to be no link between the things I wrote.

No matter what,
I know I won't be able to express it clear enough.
And no one will ever understand,
unless you were me.